Sunday, March 19, 2017

Pour Out Your Soul Before Him

The Lord Wants You To Pour Out Your Soul Before Him.
Read 1 Samuel 1

For the past 11 years, my husband and I have been trying to have a child.  We never thought that we would struggle with infertility.  Infertility really isn't something that crosses your mind; until you're left standing exposed in a fertility clinic.  A clinic where doctors are still uncertain of why this is happening.

God has been faithful with each passing year.  He has given me strength to press on and accept this beautiful life.  I have been able to love deeply and pour into the lives of those around me.  I've been able to accept the Sovereign hand of God (Psalm 135:6) that lovingly protects me and shelter's me under His wing (Psalm 91:1-4).  I praise God for allowing me to be in this place.  This place of peace and contentment.

Over the past few months God has been birthing in my heart a deep desire to pray.  He has used different events, sermons and books in my life to ignite a passion and conviction to pray.  I even wrote about my weekly prayer phone call (here).  I have been documenting where I see the hand of God moving, working and answering prayer.  It is increasing my faith and quite frankly exposing areas of my life where I give little attention to prayer.

You would probably never believe it; but infertility is one of those areas.  It's embarrassing to admit, but I know that others have prayed more fervently for me than I have prayed for myself.  For whatever reason, this area of infertility has been easier to suppress than to pray about.  It's easier for me to say that God is Sovereign, than to earnestly ask Him to give me the desire of my heart.  It's easier to say that it must be God's will for my life, than to ask Him to perform a miracle.  It's been easier for me to "move on" than to get on my knees and pray, as Hannah did, speaking out of her anxiety and vexation.

God's word says that the Lord closed Hannah's womb.  It also says that Hannah poured out her soul before the Lord.  Then, in due time, the Lord granted Hannah's desire.  It's hard for me to even type these words, but I am asking God to perform a miracle. I am asking God to hear my heart and give us a child (from my womb).  I know that He can.  I just don't know if He will.  Whatever He chooses I trust Him.  But I want to have faith, like Hannah.  I want to pour out my soul before the Lord.  I want to ask Him.  I feel compelled to ask Him.


The Lord Closed Hannah's Womb
Vs 1-2  Elkanah had two wives: Hannah (no children) & Peninnah (had children)
Vs 3-5  Elkanah would worship & sacrifice each year in Shiloh.  He gave a double portion to Hannah and single portion to Peninnah and her children.
Vs 6-7  Peninnah would provoke Hannah, year after year
Vs 8  Elkanah asked Hannah "Why do you weep?  Am I not better than 10 sons."
  • What is the deepest desire of your heart?

The Lord Heard Hannah's Prayer
Vs 9-11  Hannah went to the temple & wept bitterly for a son as she prayed & vowed to give her son to the Lord
Vs 12-14  Eli observed her praying and thought she was drunk
Vs 15  Hannah told Eli she was troubled in spirit & has been pouring out her soul before the Lord
Vs 16  Hannah was speaking out of her anxiety and vexation
Vs 17  Eli told her to "Go in peace.  May God grant you the desire of your heart."
  • What do you want that would take a miracle of God to happen?
  • Have you truly poured out your soul before the Lord over this desire?
  • When will you begin praying for your miracle?

The Lord Granted Hannah Her Deepest Desire
Vs 18-19  Hannah went back to Elkanah and slept with Him.  God remembered Hannah.
Vs 20  In due time... Hannah conceived and bore a son.  She named him Samuel which means, I have asked for him from the Lord.
Vs 21-23  Elkanah returned to worship but Hannah stayed home with Samuel until she had weaned him.
Vs 24-26  When Hannah had weaned him, she took Samuel to the house of the Lord at Shiloh
Vs 27-28  She brought Samuel to Eli.  She told Eli that this is the child that she had prayed for, God answered, and she was lending Samuel to the Lord as long as Samuel lived.  Hannah kept her promise
  • Looking back over your life, what desires of your heart have you already been granted?
  • How can you thank God for these fulfilled dreams?

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